I should be terrified. My entire life I've trembled at the idea of having Cancer. Cancer and car crashes - the two deaths I lived in fear of all along. Yet, the moment day before yesterday when my gastroenterologist delivered the diagnosis of Colon Cancer didn't send me cowering into a corner.
Instead God has infused me with a quadruple dose of His Spirit, and I can testify this morning that I'm anything but fearful. Instead I'm joyful, serene, and hopeful! I'm just in awe! When I needed Him most He came through.
So, I don't know for sure what the future holds. At the very least the surgery I'll be undergoing soon with be painful with a long recovery. My life, no doubt, will be drastically altered in any case, yet I'm overflowing with peace knowing that He's sovereign and holds me in the palm of his hand. I'll be okay!
And already He's given me an opportunity to use this circumstance to do his work. I was asked by a friend, who I've witnessed to in the past, why this diagnosis, coming on the top of having Muscular Dystrophy, didn't send me into a corner in a dark room to whimper? ZING! There was my opportunity to tell him again about the wonderful, peaceful assurance of having Christ in my heart. He quickly changed the subject, but I know that comment hit it's mark.(Pray that my friend's hard heart will be softened!)
If you're reading this I'd appreciate your prayers as well. I'm sort of a whiney sufferer, and the upcoming colon resection promises some tough days. I'm praying that I won't have to undergo chemotherapy. Pray with me, please! Love you guys!
Instead God has infused me with a quadruple dose of His Spirit, and I can testify this morning that I'm anything but fearful. Instead I'm joyful, serene, and hopeful! I'm just in awe! When I needed Him most He came through.
So, I don't know for sure what the future holds. At the very least the surgery I'll be undergoing soon with be painful with a long recovery. My life, no doubt, will be drastically altered in any case, yet I'm overflowing with peace knowing that He's sovereign and holds me in the palm of his hand. I'll be okay!
And already He's given me an opportunity to use this circumstance to do his work. I was asked by a friend, who I've witnessed to in the past, why this diagnosis, coming on the top of having Muscular Dystrophy, didn't send me into a corner in a dark room to whimper? ZING! There was my opportunity to tell him again about the wonderful, peaceful assurance of having Christ in my heart. He quickly changed the subject, but I know that comment hit it's mark.(Pray that my friend's hard heart will be softened!)
If you're reading this I'd appreciate your prayers as well. I'm sort of a whiney sufferer, and the upcoming colon resection promises some tough days. I'm praying that I won't have to undergo chemotherapy. Pray with me, please! Love you guys!
